So scared

Bloody hell, my girlfriend started feeling bad again. I'm so so scared right now. I'm afraid of the worst, you may say that nobody dies from an infection. But... what if the infection gets complicated with another pathology? I'm afraid for what can happen to her. Besides, if she goes into the hospital again, I won't be able to spend the night with her. The nurses already hate us both.
Worst of all, from my egoistical point of view, is that if she dies, I don't know how I will take it. It's the very first time in my life that somebody makes me feel barely human. I have feelings.. damn it. Otherwise, I wouldn't be writing this crap.

You all go to hell.